“everything of your day shines your way in night” just as our moon turns to its full moon phase for this new episode of song dot land. for a few days, the moon cuts through the darkness and lets us diurnal creatures explore.

this episode explores nature and love, the connections between all the living. “how many spiders had spun their webs in the blades we ran through hand-in-hand?”

tonight’s song dot land is awesome. i don’t know where this stuff comes from but i love singing and playing and sharing with you. enjoy.

tonight’s song dot land brings you some multi-track vocals with a reflection of my sadness at 15 when i missed the smashing pumkins’ final tour (information from the show that actually happened in 2000). at it’s core, this episode expands on the contentment i have today when i breathe. i’ve got everything i need.

the middle is about love and the sun.

enjoy the music as much as i enjoy making it! this is a strange one! i also name drop adam grant. again.

“What is it that you see when you look deep inside?
All that painful basement garbage.”

Recorded on November 2, 2020. First released on 2022-01-21 for my birthday.

when harris wittels died in 2015, i improvised this song afterward to commemorate the terrible day.

recorded 2015-02-28. first release: 2022-01-08.

transcript

from the very beginning of this song
your light would shine through the darkness
when i thought of all the ways we’ve connected
i know that it was truly astonishing

i wouldn’t have to wake up in my bed in the morning thinking
what am i gonna do today
i don’t have another place to go

you’d give me hope like a sandwich would that was leftovers
the only thing motivating me to get out of bed

and i would say, this is not the day for you to win
this is not the day we’re gonna fight about it

it’s like it was when i was young
now i’m older still but i’ve got the things going on that never change
they’re still the same

the same fears come crawling through my door at night
and in the morning they don’t see the light
and every time i look around, i feel afraid
is this all going down the drain?

will i ever be more than a follower
more than a dreamer?

and it would come across like the fears in the night
and the people in the suits wouldn’t say it’s alright
and i would never know anyway, even if they tried

all the bones in my body seem drained of the marrow
and i knew that they would see something that would harrow me
but i didn’t know how to call upon it
it was lost in the depths of loss
so fearful of integrity and all the things that had to be

i never really say no
i never really want to say no

even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end
even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end
even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end
your still a friend i have that gets me out of bed
your still a friend i have that gets me out of bed

and i’m not scared of anything that’s left here now
and i’m not scared, and you

even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid
even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid
even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid
but someday i will have to end it
someday i will have to end it
someday i will have to end it
but not today

the siren song of opiates is waking me today
i’ve got nothing else to give
the siren song of all the things i love so much
seem just to always fade away

rest in peace, harris wittels