“everything of your day shines your way in night” just as our moon turns to its full moon phase for this new episode of song dot land. for a few days, the moon cuts through the darkness and lets us diurnal creatures explore.
this episode explores nature and love, the connections between all the living. “how many spiders had spun their webs in the blades we ran through hand-in-hand?”
tonight’s song dot land brings you some multi-track vocals with a reflection of my sadness at 15 when i missed the smashing pumkins’ final tour (information from the show that actually happened in 2000). at it’s core, this episode expands on the contentment i have today when i breathe. i’ve got everything i need.
the middle is about love and the sun.
enjoy the music as much as i enjoy making it! this is a strange one! i also name drop adam grant. again.
tonight’s song dot land brings you panoramic sound with ebows and the passion of raising the next generation, “paying attention to details everywhere / because in life we learn the best ideas.” thank you for listening!
oh what a day to be alive! what a day to be alive (10:40). enjoy tonight’s song dot land podcast, the internet broadcast in which i share from all parts of my nervous system. i move my fingers, i move my mouth, i move my body, i move my brain, and this happens. thank you for listening 🙇🏻♂️
when harris wittels died in 2015, i improvised this song afterward to commemorate the terrible day.
recorded 2015-02-28. first release: 2022-01-08.
transcript
from the very beginning of this song your light would shine through the darkness when i thought of all the ways we’ve connected i know that it was truly astonishing
i wouldn’t have to wake up in my bed in the morning thinking what am i gonna do today i don’t have another place to go
you’d give me hope like a sandwich would that was leftovers the only thing motivating me to get out of bed
and i would say, this is not the day for you to win this is not the day we’re gonna fight about it
it’s like it was when i was young now i’m older still but i’ve got the things going on that never change they’re still the same
the same fears come crawling through my door at night and in the morning they don’t see the light and every time i look around, i feel afraid is this all going down the drain?
will i ever be more than a follower more than a dreamer?
and it would come across like the fears in the night and the people in the suits wouldn’t say it’s alright and i would never know anyway, even if they tried
all the bones in my body seem drained of the marrow and i knew that they would see something that would harrow me but i didn’t know how to call upon it it was lost in the depths of loss so fearful of integrity and all the things that had to be
i never really say no i never really want to say no
even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end even though i know that this is gonna kill me in the end your still a friend i have that gets me out of bed your still a friend i have that gets me out of bed
and i’m not scared of anything that’s left here now and i’m not scared, and you
even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid even though this is gonna kill me in the end, i’m not afraid but someday i will have to end it someday i will have to end it someday i will have to end it but not today
the siren song of opiates is waking me today i’ve got nothing else to give the siren song of all the things i love so much seem just to always fade away
please enjoy tonight’s song dot land. a friend told me they listen to this podcast while they go to sleep. what a gift that was to my soul this week! this episode was recorded on 2022-01-02, the second day of the year. the day of the new moon.
this uncut episode has highs and lows as it explores the opportunity for change at the beginning of something new. i used a looping pedal in the middle that allowed for some fun playing around with self-accompaniment. enjoy!
this week’s song.land scorched into existence after jesse listened to chopin. inspired by polonaise no. 6 in a-flat, op. 53 (“heroic”), jesse outputs music with the trouble and chaos inspired by chopin’s masterpiece.