coronavirus patrick

Jesse faces the fear of the unknown future from COVID-19 as it continues to spread around the world. On this celebration of St. Patrick, find encouragement in knowing this war has raged for billions of years.

When I played music in churches, st patrick’s day was one of my favorite days to celebrate in the whole year. Why? It offers a celebration of spring, of the new life popping from winter’s frozen soil. It celebrates the spread of the worship-inducing trance of being convinced that more people are going to heaven.

For many, it’s a day of great celebration, as it was for me.

By extreme contrast, welcome to what’s happening on this celebration of the clover-is-the-message traveling missionary this year: coronavirus.

Everyone will have a family member or relative who died.”

brown bunnies

Walk through the woods of, a soundscape on the idea that generations learn and grow after each other. I lived a better childhood than my mother.

So, when you have pain in your life and you doubt the situation, as I have done in my life, may we both hold on. Our future selves will thank you. Our future loved ones will, too.

A few items in the song:

  • I do talk about my mom’s rough upbringing. I had a grandpa that was terrible in many ways.
  • When singing about monarchs, this is based on the fact that they go through generations on their annual migration from Mexico, into the US and Canada, then back to Mexico. It does not happen in one generation. See all about it on It’s Ok to Be Smart on YouTube.

screaming trees

Welcome to, a podcast where the goal is to find joy in life through musical reflection. In tonight’s weird episode, explore screaming your shame into the woods so the trees can turn the carbon dioxide into oxygen. Welcome to

Inspiration for this episode comes from a few areas:

  • Screaming in the Woods comes from a YouTube blog post (whatever that is called? Blog posts are now on YouTube‽) from The School of Life. I can’t find the article now, so watch their channel on YouTube and learn a lot.
  • I wouldn’t have my understanding of shame and vulnerability if it were not for the popular Brené Brown. Thank you for what you’ve championed for the world, Brené.
  • Science. Plants breathe in CO2 and breathe out oxygen. We would not be here without the help of plant cells.
  • Check out Journey Into the Microcosm on YouTube. It’s a wonderful peak at leaf on a microscopic scale. It reminds me to be thankful for how I get to live, in relative safety and where my deepest fears and enemies are most foods at the supermarket (no thanks to you, greed), and not having a job that provides affordable health insurance. I’m not afraid of dying tomorrow, yet my single-celled friends are.

all we have

On growing older and having to accept that time marches on. I present to you a reflection on gratitude and the elements that offer further life, even when youth has or will pass you soon enough.

I mention the ancients in this episode. This is a reference to potential advanced civilizations that existed before a catastrophic event about 12,800 years ago. Explore this idea yourself from the Joe Rogan Experience with Graham Hancock and Randall Carlson if you would like.


We cover two aspects of love in tonight’s love as friendship, and love as commitment and attachment. I also mention snow multiple times.

It is that time of year for me in the northern hemisphere.

You know it’s good because of lyrics like this:

And now I hear you’re living out of trash cans in the Philadelphia area
Lettin’ the snow grow deep
Maybe there’s something special that we missed all that time

All that time, all that time

Also, this episode is uncut beyond the beginnings and endings. Yay to smooth transitions!

opera solstice—opera solstice

Welcome to a strange episode of celebrating the shortest night of the year in the northern hemisphere. It’s a celebration of light, of joy, of the laughter of the moon.

I am not a trained opera singer. Still, singing in this way unique to me makes this episode quite passionate.

Happy winter solstice! Sing it to the night!


Imagine this episode comes to you from deep in a cave. I’ve been reading Underland: A Deep Time Journey and recorded this episode inspired by some of the experiences and thoughts from the book.

For example, I journeyed with Robert Macfarlane into the roots of trees, where the forest shares nutrients between each other through roots and fungi. So I reflect on life at a cellular level, supporting and growing and sharing and hurting together.

This episode is a quiet episode.

If you don’t want to commit to the book, you may also enjoy listening to an interview from On Being with the author.